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Wednesday, February 1, 2012

staying anonymous

i've found alot of new friends on here and i started to think about how we all blog...obviously wanting to be anonymous but then situations arise where u can help someone out and you consider losing your private self to it. i seem to have all the time in the world to read blogs but i been forgetting to blog myself. i been a bit better with the meth lately, only using probably 3 or 4 days out of 7. seem to spend a lot of time sleeping inbetween. i only got 3 months till i turn 30. im starting to question my cut off date. dont know if ill be able to stick to it. hopefully i can.............xo lilly

15 comments:

Furtheron said...

The staying anonymous bit is difficult.

I first started my blog - well an older one - as I thought I was this great comic writer in waiting... er no! But I knew I'd talk about AA and stuff so was pretty much totally anonymous on it.

Then my Mum died and the blog really changed - it was about me and recovery and life and emotions and how the hell do I not drink - I was 2 years sober and all over the place...

The current blog is about me - AA, sobriety, what I do - which includes a lot about music. One big story is that after feeling I'd never play again as I couldn't see how I could without a drink inside me I got an opportunity - through the blog - took it took to the stage, wrote new material, recorded it, got other gigs, got on a radio station (via the blog)... so it became a minor showcase for me... so all anonymity was blown.

Tricky... I sometimes think I should have two blogs an anonymous one for the recovery stuff and one about the music... but it is all me

I hope you can stick to a date whatever it is - in the end mine was 14 May 2004 - wasn't planned I'd just finally had enough of the shit... my original planned date was 3 April 2003 but hey day at a time anyway now

bugerlugs63 said...

Hi lovey . . . I was quute happy not to be anonymoue as I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone'e business . . . Or they like to think they do. My eldest Son was worried about his friends finding it that was my only worry. I've not checked my E-mails yet but I will later and I will E-mail you my Bro's details . . . I didn't want my surname on here if I can help it . . .
I really appreciate your help with this.
Well done on the "clean nights" . . . I struggle to do one night. Ok off to prison now for the day . . . look forward to getting home ;-) Take Care. x

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

bugerlugs... i was waiting on your reply. ive done a lot of internet research into it and i am positive i will find him and get you a photo. it has given me a new task to complete and im ready to complete it. ill wait for your email. also i found someone i know within the SArmy so that will definately help. look forward to hearing from you. xo lilly

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

furtheron... my date to stick to is april 29th. whats your other blog called so i can have a look and how do i listen to some of your music. im a big downloader so can i download it. xo lilly

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The Girl From Back Then said...

It's true, we start off that way and, somewhere along the line we end up reaching out to others. Giving a bit more of ourselves each time. Sometimes it's just the biggest relief to know that you have a voice. When you're down and out and it seems everything good has been kicked out of you.

Good luck with sticking to your date. And if you don't, try not to beat yourself up. The whole lifestyle has been so integral to your survival, it's only natural that it will take some time to find other ways.

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

the girl from back then.... i agree. i dont want to self sabotage myself so hopefully it just runs smoothly. if it doesnt it doesnt, our new government quitsmoking campaigns are 'never give up, giving up' i think they finally realised telling people to quit when they profit from all the cigarettes we buy doesnt work. lol. xo lilly

The Girl From Back Then said...

Ha, yes, it's always struck me as strange that we are bombarded with government campaigns to get people to stop smoking, and yet they continue to sell cigarettes. Do they care about the revnue they make, or do they care about us?

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

girl from back then.... i just made a new post with the government campaign ad link in it. funny shit. lol. xo lilly

Furtheron said...

Hi Lilly - the other blog was killed by me some time back in a fit of something... I was depressed and thought I was only talking to myself... Over self-importance then realised the blog was really for me not so much others :-)


if you want to download my music go to http://www.soundcloud.com/grahamhunt-1

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

furtheron.... ill definately check out ur music. ill let u know my thoughts. take care mate. xo lilly

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

furtheron... DEMONS is my favourite. xo lilly

Fuck You Lucy said...

I'm 13 days clean now.. fucking killing it!! Think I'll bust tomorrow though. but I think every clean day counts/helps. Maybe you are helping people even if you are anonymous.. xo

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

lucy.... its hard to stay clean ina place as small as adelaide hey. hopefully people read the bullshit we go thru and stay well away from getting to this point. xo lilly

Fuck You Lucy said...

I know.. its an epidemic here and i can't seem to rid it or people, connections ect ect. I dunno what Im saying, Im a bit drunk and i don't drink very often lol. Im sick of this life Lily :( Hiding it from my best friends and family.. Hope you're doing well.. X x