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Thursday, February 9, 2012

too many drama's

sometimes its hard to keep everything going on around you in perfect sync. theres family, close friends, straight friends, associates, online friends, and anyone else who just pops into or out of your life. i need to find more direction, something to spend a bit on time on that isnt so close to my home truth's. i've been reading a lot of blog posts... missing alot of the people i started off following on here and now i just dont see any new posts from them. i realise we get desperate, pawn our computers, dont have access to an internet connection, and generally have really bad, down depressing days where we just dont bother.... but its hard not to worry about the people who's blogs you read, especially wondering if they have over dosed or worse. anyway, bit of a whinge and a whine from me.... xo lilly

14 comments:

Barbara said...

Hi Lily, Thanks for the comment you left on my blog with your thoughts on what makes a good substance abuse counselor, it was my favorite one :)

I know what you mean about how some blog friends don't update and then you start to wonder and worry. I hope your blog mates show up again and let you know they are okay :)

Furtheron said...

The lives of the chaotics - although the normals come and go without as much as a goodbye as well at times

bugerlugs63 said...

YAY!We've found him!
I have to go see Dr right now as I aint well at all. but I will E-mail you details later of where he is . . . Maybe u could get me a photo? Please? I might have lost your e mail address so if you could remind me then I send you details later for sure. At least we know for sure where he is now.

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

ok bugerlugs... send me an email at mymethdiaries@hotmail.com with his details and ill go get a photo of his grave for you. im glad u found him...al the best, xo lilly

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

barbara... i been following your blog for awhile now and im glad u following me now. no matter what anyone says...your son is your son! people may hate on u and say stop enabling him but he's ur kid and i get why u help him. people dont get the fact that maybe he may shit on what u do for him but still how would u feel if tomorrow he wasnt here and u hadnt let him shit on it. dont stop helping him just dont let it rule your life. look after yourself first then him. im an addict and i know he will understand this eventually. im behind u 100%, i wish my mum was you. xo lilly

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

furtheron..it is definately chaotic but ill always have time to say goodbye to u. love u music...kepp rocking and writing. xo lilly

bugerlugs63 said...

Hi LOvey,
I dint find the Email but no worries we can do this without me putting my surname on here. He's at Dudley Park cemetary. Plot T.A.G. Path C number 211. His first names are Anthony James although they have him listed as Anthony John. It seems there could be a few coffins in this plot as I think it's a "paupers' plot" for homeless folk and the like. If you could get a photo that would be great. There is no headstone as yet but me and Sister are thinking about getting that sorted as her ex is a stone mason.
If you could E-mail me the photo I would really appreciate that.
bugerlugs63@yahoo.co.uk
I will then post it onto my blog with the story . . . amazing.
Thanks so much again for offering to help with this. It'll be so good to just be able to "see" where he is. Take care lovey, look forward to hearing from you x

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

bugerlugs.... dudley park cemetary is less than 5 minutes from my house so im gonna head down there later today. ill take a few photos for u of the cemetary aswell. its only lunchtime here now so it wont be long. how do u want me to send the photos. do u want me to upload them to my blog and you can copy them from here. either way ill post them soon for you. xo lilly

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

bugerlugs.... i just got back from the cemetary. im currently uploading pictures of the grounds but because its sunday here ill go back in tomorrow to talk to someone in the office about the exact location of the grave. i walked around for about 45 minutes but couldnt find it. ill send u the pictures i took later on then ill get a proper pic tomorrow. im glad to help. its a nice peaceful resting place. xo lilly

bugerlugs63 said...

O wow that brill lovey . . . Yes put them on your blog that's cool . . then I can copy them. Like I said as long as surname is not showing . . . If you find the exact location and his name is there just "blur" the surname or stick some grass on it?! I don't know . . . You'll work it out ;-)
Let me go check I gave you correct details . . . O I'm so excited :-)
Bless you lovey . . . Thanks x

bugerlugs63 said...

Yep . . . Plot T. A. G. Path C number 211 . . . Like I said though I think there could be a few "vagrants/paupers" there. It was a proper funeral though, put on by the Salvation Army . . . Bless them. There was just them and my Sister there.
Thanks so much Lily for all of this x x x

bugerlugs63 said...

Ok I just E-mailed you our surname . . . As that might help with exact location.
I'm ok with all photos being on blog as I'm sure they are only of interest to me and my Sister . . . Just as long as surname is "hidden".
Thanks again so much for your time and willingness to help a "total stranger"
Bless you x x x

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

bugerlugs.... i just spoke to the cemetary. theres a bit of bad news. because the area he was buried in was paupers graves its been redeveloped already and because they were unpaid funerals u are not allowed to put a headstone in there. but the good news is i still know exactly where he is buried but his name name is not up on the wall. what im suggesting is i go get a small stick on plaque done with his name and just hope noone notices it attached to the 1983 wall. ill go down there later today to take a photo of the wall for you. did u get my email with the photos of the cemetary attached. i sent it to the address u gave me.xo lilly

Gledwood said...

I used to have a computer at home then it died on me hence my once a week posts instead of daily ones and I know what you mean we are not living in war zones but as soon as you stop hearing from someone you jump to the obvious conclusion...... we all do :-(