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Thursday, May 3, 2012

7 days into my straight life....i think

so its thursday night, bout 1023 pm and i'm 7 days clean. been quite unmotivated for past 2 days but felt better today. i got house inspection next week so i been franticallly cleaning fingerprints and marks off all walls and surfaces. i just got out of the shower. while i was in there i almost killed myself by leaning on my shower screen and nearly falling out of shower when the shower wall moved. think this place was a dodgy renovation job. i never complin to the landlord i just fix the problems which arise, examples being...dodgy doorknobs, liquid nailed shower rods and screens, liquid nailed blinds, skirting boards which are notfixed to the walls, dud downlights and more. but now the owner has transfered management to a real estate agent so im gonna get them to fix the problems.
onto another topic, being a newly straightened person is tough. im finding it hard to move on and be normal. myteeth are hurting and i keep pulling muscles when i overdo myself. maybe the meth helped me not to notice the small pains and because i was high i was invincible and persisted with things till i got em done. i coughed as i woke up this morning and think i pulled a muscle in my thigh. i been limping around all day. i know when i used to hang out for meth my teeth would hurt but id just get on again and it wouldnt hurt anymore. im booking a doctors appointment tomorrow to get a full check up done. just to see where my health is at. i feel fine really but im worried about the doctor being able to get a blood sample considering i cant even find a vein anymore.
im gonna apologise in advance for spelling and grammer in my post, im typing as it comes to mind so i gotta get it down before my mind moves onto another thought.
thankyou to everyone who has wished me well and reads my blog. you all know more about the real lilly than anyone who i know in real life or associate with in real life.
xo lilly

9 comments:

Furtheron said...

Continue to wish you well ... once you straighten up you find out a lot of stuff... like I had Migraine Associated Vertigo - i.e. I get a headache, little one, a whoosing in the ear and then the room all starts spinning and I fall over and am sick.

Now - problem was that describes many of my drinking days anyhow! So it did explain how sometimes I could have 8 - 10 pints and not have anything like that other days this whole room spinning nonsense... actually it wasn't the drink I had something else wrong with me.

early recovery/being straight isn't easy and it is a new experience pretty much everyday - go easy on yourself you'll continue to walk the path hopefully

Random Girl said...

Hooray Lilly! I'm so happy for you and proud of you! Keep it up my Aussie sister... You inspire me and hopefully soon I'll follow your lead... For now though it looks as if I've gone COMPLETELY in the other direction... geez :)
    -Your American Sister, <a href="http://me-and-meth.blogspot.com>Random Girl</a>

Random Girl said...

Hooray Lilly! I'm so happy for you and proud of you! Keep it up my Aussie sister... You inspire me and hopefully soon I'll follow your lead... For now though it looks as if I've gone COMPLETELY in the other direction... geez :)
    -Your American Sister, Random Girl

Random Girl said...

Hooray Lilly! I'm so happy for you and proud of you! Keep it up my Aussie sister... You inspire me and hopefully soon I'll follow your lead... For now though it looks as if I've gone COMPLETELY in the other direction... geez :)
    -Your American Sister, Random Girl

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

furtheron...thanks mate. straight scares me but ill cope. xo lilly

random girl...i think its my time to straighten up. 15 out of 30 years is too long...xo lilly

S in SK said...

Way to go, Lilly!!

BigRedIrish said...

Good luck to you. I truly hope you can keep with it. Fight the fight!

xo lilly (my life unspoken) said...

bigredirish.....thanks mate. will keep fighting for sure. xo lilly

Carrion Doll said...

Hey Lilly, just started reading your blog tonight. I think Gledwood recommended it to Melody Lee and I thought I would check it out.Just wanted to say Hi and great blog. Been clean myself since December of last year, opiates for me. I am going to go back and catch up on your back posts. Good luck and keep your head up. Your going to do great.